Happy rainy Monday...I love the sound of the rain, it just seems so peaceful. We get so little of it. I saw my oncologist last Thursday, and they worried me again, I had to take an extra blood test because my wtc count was really low. My first test was on Tuesday, and I guess my count was .84 and then on Thursday (when they did it again) it was at 1.54 which is where it should be at for another dose of poison. She decided to give me an extra week off. Thank goodness, but on the other hand it just postpones the inevidable. I asked what stage it was at and she said stage 3 and invasive. Blah blah blah....it's all just a bunch of crap anyway. I am not worried in the least. My only concerns is the effect on my body, by taking Xeloda in the first place. I hate the way my feet hurt all the time, and have tried everything to make them better. On the brighter side, I have a new oncologist, and she is so awesome, I feel I can truely talk to her without wondering if she understands what I mean.
I cheated last week and got a latte from Timmy's....big mistake, the sugar in it made me sick. Dumbass, I won't do that again. I'll order a black coffee and take my own sweetener. I guess it's a sure way of knowing what different things do to your body. I've also been studing the Laetrile, vitamin B17. Very intersesting. I didn't even realize that alot of what I am eating from the Budwig diet and the 80 percent raw, 20 percent cooked food, is containing this life saving vitamin. It just confirms in my mind that I am on the right track. My biggest problem right now is gathering up the nerve to ask nan and pop for enough money to buy a ph water machine. I'm not sure if it was 3 or five grand, but I know I want to get one. I was drinking it for a couple of weeks then stopped, because I felt as though I was bugging Lila, but have started drinking it again, and it makes such a huge difference it's unbelievable! I would have everyone in the family and friends drinking it all the time!