OUCH

Today and tomorrow, then I have a week off, and the timing is right. I need the next week to heal up as good as I can....my feet feel like someone has peeled all the skin off and I have to walk on a bed of nails! I can't sleep and my bones are aching. It's weird, I have the energy levels, but the pains just seem to.....have it caged somehow. I am worried that some patterns are returning to this household, and I know I can't just sit back and let them happen. I guess I'm just not wanting to go through this again and am feeling sorry for myself. I want my mommy..silly I know but I do. I am so frustrated. I know I'm not expected to do anything and could just sit down, relax and heal, but I don't have that in me either. I refuse to just "sit back". I have a house to run and kids to look after. I just want to bawl. This sucks so bad! I am sad, mad, happy and thankful all rolled up into one. I hope or maybe even know that this fight in me is enough to get me through again.
Another concern right now is Sarah..she seems to be having all the symptoms I have. I've tried telling her that this is part of the healing process, but she is mimicking my pains. I don't know how else to ease her mind...she will make herself sick if she keeps making herself think she is. I am very concerned, and will focus on this today. I will take her back to the doctor, and see if Sarah could maybe talk to someone about how she feels about all this. I don't want to dismiss her pain, and will have her thoroughly checked, but her mental state needs some healing as well.
I also am so thankful for the friends I have, who are silently watching, waiting to help( you know who you are). Thank you, and I will not shut you out this time.... ;) ...